Herrmitain

This year's Father's Day was a solemn occasion. We didn't celebrate it this year since dad passed away a few days before. I remembered sitting on the sofa, scrolling through twitter when I came across a trending topic, Father's Day. Everyone was wishing their dad and there I was, wishing to none. My eyes started to water and my brother noticed. He asked me, "What's wrong?" I just said, "Today's Father's Day". Then he gave me a hug saying, "Yeah, I know." My dad passed away on 13th of June, merely 7 days after his birthday. I did wish him on his birthday saying, "Hey dad, you know what day is today? It's your birthday! Happy Birthday, dad." He did let out a little smile acknowledging my wish. But he didn't say anything. Also, we had no cake for his birthday this year. We had nothing. He can't keep anything down but water. I should've noticed that something is off. But I shrugged it off thinking ...

Budak-budak zaman 90an dulu memang minat habis kat cerita Avatar: The Last Airbender ni kan. Nickelodeon dulu-dulu memang hasilkan animasi yang hebat-hebat sampai harini belum ada animasi yang sama hebat macam cerita ni. Sequel Avatar: The Last Airbender, The Legend of Korra pun tak sama taraf dengan dia. Semuanya sebab Aang ni watak dia sangat senang nak faham sebab dia budak umur 12 tahun tapi terbeku dalam ais selama 100 tahun, jadinya umur sebenar dia 112 tahun la. Nak bagitau, sebab haritu terjumpa video behind the voice dia. Omg, memang fangirl sekejap. Suara Prince Zuko memang unexpected. Suara dia sangat lah sedap serak-serak sikit. Watak kegemaran dalam ATLA: General Iroh Prince Zuko Sokka Aang Cabbage Man Sparky Boom Boom Man Cuba tengok ni : Untuk fans ATLA, enjoy! p/s: baru habis ulang tengok buat kesekian kalinya kat Netflix. Omg people. Rasa nak tengok balik.

It's been more than two weeks since Ayah last at home. He's now receiving the help he needs someplace else because where we live, such help is not readily available. My fourth brother is currently is the chosen guardian because he lives in the city, and physiotherapy center as well as medical establishment are close by. I really hope Ayah can find it within himself to recover as best as he could because he's still relatively young as he's not yet reached his 70s. I hope anyone who reads this post or just happens to stumble upon my humble blog would pray for Ayah's speedy recovery and reigniting his motivation so he would always want to improve his situation. On the other side of the story, I've been hermitting quite seriously since Ma and Ayah left for the city. I read more, I watch animated stories more, I get to take naps whenever I want (which is once a day, I don't go off the edge by sleeping all day just yet :D), and I cook for one mostly these day...

Recently watched a four-part documentary on The Holy War in the perspective of Arabs on Al-Jazeera's channel on YouTube. What an eye opener. Turns out, the term "Crusade" wasn't even used then (during the war or soon after that). It was coined someone else much much later. And now, we're being programmed that the word crusade meant fighting something evil whilst it actually meant operations sanctioned by the church. I'll share the first part here, and if you want to watch the rest of it you can continue so on the site. p/s: I'm on team Salah ed-din Al-Ayyubi.

Things are changing. I'm not sure that I like or welcome it, but things are going to change nevertheless. I will try to accept things but I'm probably going to suck so bad. Sorry in advance.

So, uhh... I started writing in a journal recently. Stuff that I wrote in there ranges from daily thoughts, notification of death of immediate family members, and my nightmares. It's not a routine thing, I just write when I feel like I want to be able to recall stuff when I needed and I kind of decide as I go what I want to put it. Not everything end up in the journal. Some private stuff just end up in my brain so no one can access it, not even me especially I'm such a forgetful person. I wish I could remember something meaningful about myself for the past 29 years, but truth be told, I can't remember any. Sounds sad, but that could mean I just don't care that much about what happens to me, except for some really messed up stuff. Hahah that sounds exactly like me! Remembering all the stupid crap and forgetting all the good ones. Anyway, I'm 30 this year people. Too old for sappy emotional shit. I'm gonna be more honest and try to write more. Not that anyone...

Helo semua! Redivider ni cerita genre sci-fi, pasal sorang laki ni nama dia Porter. Dia juruterbang dan jugak ahli fizik. Pernah kerja kat NASA lepas tu sekarang ada satu syarikat swasta ni nak rekrut dia. Nama syarikat tu Alterplex Energy, syarikat tenaga swasta. Masa tu tenaga boleh baharu macam solar pun tak boleh nak tampung penggunaan tenaga yang naik mendadak. Jadi, diorang terpaksa cari jalan lain nak bekalkan tenaga kat satu dunia. Cara dia, salin dunia sekarang dan buat satu dunia gema (echo) yang dianggap kosong jadi diorang boleh guna jirim daripada dunia gema tu untuk dijadikan tenaga bersih. Ada satu kumpulan aktivis ni kata, tak baik la buat macam tu. Jadi diorang kata, kalau ada benda tak elok je jadi diorang akan sedaya upaya nak berhentikan operasi Alterplex tu. Pastu, projek tu mula. Alterplex hidupkan menara tenaga diorang sedut tenaga daripada dunia gema tu. Tiba-tiba, ada benda dari dunia gema tu masuk dunia asal melalui portal kat menara tenaga tu. Jatuh ...