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    I've decided to do book reviews now. Deal with it as you please, sorry though if it doesn't measure up. Cheers!   This book has been sitting idly on the second row of my IKEA Billy's bookshelf since I bought it from BookXcess online store. It is my fault it has been there for so long, but I'm glad I bought this book. I didn't remember why I bought it, or any story line prior reading it.  When I first started reading this book, I saw a white lady's name, Holly Bodger. Imagine my shock when I read the first chapter and realized the setting is not in a western country, but an inspired land off of India. I always thought people would write about the things that are familiar to them, but this one is different. Or it's maybe my uninformed self that probably the author has plenty experience about India. The second thing that shocked me is that this story is a dystopian story, set in 2041. Most dystopian story I read or watched are mostly based in the US, UK, C...

 sebenarnya kan, aku tak kisah pun single.  but i have to admit,  it's nice to have someone fuss over you when you're sick. sekarang aku tengah demam, aku kena jaga diri sendiri punya makan, aku sendiri punya ubat. haha bukan komplen, cuma ni pemerhatian aku je.

Since the last post which was exactly 2 months ago, some things has been happening.  I started on a weight loss journey, by myself  I've lost 4.6 kg total  I gained some of them back and lose them again for the past couple of week Had a emotional low where I had to solicit advice from a friend  I always thought losing weight was easy, as the only thing you had to do was watch over what you eat and you'll lose the kgs. But, from what I experienced, the emotional battle within me was the hardest to face. Telling myself, if I quit I could eat whatever I want since I gained some of the weight back. Why keep at it when I plateaud, and even gain weight back? Tough questions to answer.  I know the answer is consistency and not giving up. But that is easier said than done. However, I want to come out the other side being 10 or 15 kg lighter. I want it. I will it. It will be done.  Hope's my next post will be more cheerful haha Here's hoping.   

Yesterday was the 2nd day of a little program organized by our company. A little get together to learn new skills that has something to do with assessment reporting, determining the best course of action after we have gathered some information in our helping process.   The class was wonderful. New friends are great. Old friends are even greater. We shared minds on what mistakes we did, how to improve, safe to say we're taking in huge loads of new information and trying to adopt these new standards for our own habitual practice.  Those are what I considered the highs of yesterday and the day before that.  But, the lows.  I ended yesterday with self-blame, grieving over my own appearance, with a dash of self-loathe. I was asked during Rorschach analysis whether I've never been happy about the way I look.      Caught off guard, I nodded and said yes.  When asked whether I wanted to be Cinderella.      I nodded and said y...

Hello! It's COVID-19 season again. I was a confirmed positive case on Sunday, 13th of March 2022. Just a little background story of how I caught this nasty virus. I'm currently doing my internship at a government agency. I'm not going to name names, but one of the workers there came to work a bit sick one day around a week before I got sick. I asked this person whether he or she is okay, and the reply I get was, "I've tested myself, and it was negative. So this is probably just flu". So, fast forward to Friday. I was attending a forum with students in the auditorium. I felt funny, like my throat was sore and I kept drinking water to sooth it but it worked for just awhile and then it felt sore again.  I thought nothing of it. For all I know, I had no close contact with anyone COVID positive. However, the next day, I felt feverish. I felt weak. I slept at odd times during the weekends. It was off. And my voice became hoarse, like a boy on puberty. It sounds ridi...

 Hari ni 9 februari dah. Aku masih kat rumah, menunggu surat terima untuk buat intern kat tempat yang aku dah mohon hari tu. Hmm.. takutlah tak dapat. Tapi, aku tau aku takkan give up awal. Jangan bersangka buruk orang kata. Okay. Aku taknak sangka buruk. Aku mesti boleh dapat intern kat situ. Jia you CK! Pastu kan korang, hati aku rasa berat je beberapa hari ni. Nak tau tak kenapa? Orang yang paling rapat dengan aku mungkin akan kawin tak lama lagi. Aku happy sangat untuk dia, sebab dia dah jumpa orang yang sayang dia. Tapi aku rasa macam nak kena tinggal. Aku sorang je tinggal nanti, tak kawin lagi, takde kerja betul lagi. Entahlah... Aku nak la tak sedih sebab kalau aku sedih nanti aku yang susah nak grow. Dia memang akan habiskan masa dengan pasangan dia la kan. Selama ni aku ada kawan. Lepas dia kawin, aku dah takde kawan dah. Mesti la dia letak lagi banyak komitmen kat pasangan dia. Habis aku macam mana? Tamak betul aku ni kan? 

 Hey you guys! Remember about the NGO I talked about a few posts ago? We're officially registered with ROS! Oh my god, I can't even believe it. Feels like it won't happen because we were rejected so many times. But it did! It has!  We successfully registered but have to make some changes. First, we rebranded our NGO from Feminita which has a really feminine name and may chase away potential male clients to something really public, simple, yet easy to remember. The new name is Persatuan Minda Sihat Malaysia (PMSM) or in English, I guess it would be Healthy Minds Association Malaysia or Healthy Minds for short. We've also started recruiting new members. Alhamdulillah, we scored a few more members since our registration. Most of our members are counselling students from Open University Malaysia, but we do not prevent those from other universities to join us too if they are interested in our programs and causes.    As for me, it's the first time something I did and foll...