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Yesterday was the 2nd day of a little program organized by our company. A little get together to learn new skills that has something to do with assessment reporting, determining the best course of action after we have gathered some information in our helping process.   The class was wonderful. New friends are great. Old friends are even greater. We shared minds on what mistakes we did, how to improve, safe to say we're taking in huge loads of new information and trying to adopt these new standards for our own habitual practice.  Those are what I considered the highs of yesterday and the day before that.  But, the lows.  I ended yesterday with self-blame, grieving over my own appearance, with a dash of self-loathe. I was asked during Rorschach analysis whether I've never been happy about the way I look.      Caught off guard, I nodded and said yes.  When asked whether I wanted to be Cinderella.      I nodded and said y...

Hello! It's COVID-19 season again. I was a confirmed positive case on Sunday, 13th of March 2022. Just a little background story of how I caught this nasty virus. I'm currently doing my internship at a government agency. I'm not going to name names, but one of the workers there came to work a bit sick one day around a week before I got sick. I asked this person whether he or she is okay, and the reply I get was, "I've tested myself, and it was negative. So this is probably just flu". So, fast forward to Friday. I was attending a forum with students in the auditorium. I felt funny, like my throat was sore and I kept drinking water to sooth it but it worked for just awhile and then it felt sore again.  I thought nothing of it. For all I know, I had no close contact with anyone COVID positive. However, the next day, I felt feverish. I felt weak. I slept at odd times during the weekends. It was off. And my voice became hoarse, like a boy on puberty. It sounds ridi...

 Hari ni 9 februari dah. Aku masih kat rumah, menunggu surat terima untuk buat intern kat tempat yang aku dah mohon hari tu. Hmm.. takutlah tak dapat. Tapi, aku tau aku takkan give up awal. Jangan bersangka buruk orang kata. Okay. Aku taknak sangka buruk. Aku mesti boleh dapat intern kat situ. Jia you CK! Pastu kan korang, hati aku rasa berat je beberapa hari ni. Nak tau tak kenapa? Orang yang paling rapat dengan aku mungkin akan kawin tak lama lagi. Aku happy sangat untuk dia, sebab dia dah jumpa orang yang sayang dia. Tapi aku rasa macam nak kena tinggal. Aku sorang je tinggal nanti, tak kawin lagi, takde kerja betul lagi. Entahlah... Aku nak la tak sedih sebab kalau aku sedih nanti aku yang susah nak grow. Dia memang akan habiskan masa dengan pasangan dia la kan. Selama ni aku ada kawan. Lepas dia kawin, aku dah takde kawan dah. Mesti la dia letak lagi banyak komitmen kat pasangan dia. Habis aku macam mana? Tamak betul aku ni kan? 

 Hey you guys! Remember about the NGO I talked about a few posts ago? We're officially registered with ROS! Oh my god, I can't even believe it. Feels like it won't happen because we were rejected so many times. But it did! It has!  We successfully registered but have to make some changes. First, we rebranded our NGO from Feminita which has a really feminine name and may chase away potential male clients to something really public, simple, yet easy to remember. The new name is Persatuan Minda Sihat Malaysia (PMSM) or in English, I guess it would be Healthy Minds Association Malaysia or Healthy Minds for short. We've also started recruiting new members. Alhamdulillah, we scored a few more members since our registration. Most of our members are counselling students from Open University Malaysia, but we do not prevent those from other universities to join us too if they are interested in our programs and causes.    As for me, it's the first time something I did and foll...

 Hai semua, assalamualaikum.. malam ni plan asal aku nak buat tugasan. tapi nampaknya dah teralih perhatian ke sini. dah lama tak tulis apa-apa. aku tau blog ni pun tak ada siapa yang baca, tapi aku cuma seronok dapat tulis sesuatu di tempat yang bukan buku atau tugasan. haha beberapa bulan ni aku sibuk sangat. semester ni lagi banyak kerja nak buat banding dengan semester semester lepas. aku tinggal dua semester je lagi. nak habis cepat, tapi pada masa yang sama aku rasa takut dengan apa yang aku nak kena hadap lepas tu. ada temuduga siut nak jadi orang yang berlesen. adoi. nak lepas sem ni pun terkial-kial.  korang yang baca blog aku, tolong doakan tau. terima kasih korang. walaupun aku mungkin tak kenal korang siapa.   aku suka gambar ni, corak batik. aku harap korang suka jugak gambar ni heheh

Assalamualaikum, hai korang! aku ada benda nak update kat korang. baru-baru ni, aku terbukak hati nak join satu pertubuhan ni. NGO lah kiranya. nama dia Feminita. benda ni wujud sebab ada classmate aku dalam kelas kaunseling selalu consult dengan kaunselor power ni En Hairol Kamal nama dia. En Hairol ni borak-borak dengan classmate aku tu, pastu dia cakap la, kenapa you tak buat NGO? Pastu classmate aku cakap dia taktau macam mana nak buat. Sebab ye lah kan, kitorang kan student je. Mana lah terfikir nak buat NGO apa bagai. Pastu dia cakap, takpe saya boleh ajar macam mana nak buat NGO. sebab setakat ni tak ada NGO yang based untuk perempuan je kat Malaysia ni. classmate aku pun macam, cantik lah. classmate aku ni sebenarnya tak recruit aku pun. dia recruit classmate aku lagi sorang. pastu classmate yang lagi sorang ni yang recruit aku. first, aku macam nak join ke tak eh. macam skeptik sikit pun ada. ye lah, selama ni dengar NGO kat bandar-bandar je, pastu macam aku pun tak pernah ada...

 I'm doing something I've never done before. Hopefully this pans out well. Nervous, scared, but I'm not going to back down.